the unremitting pain of george wallace

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"I’ve had 20 years of pain” – George Wallace on the 20th anniversary of the attempt to assassinate him

 

A stone’s throw from Sun

A ball that doesn’t bounce

Suspended

Down there

In under space;

Home to humanity

And other life forms

Worth saving only

If we want

A repeat

Of this gathering

Millennia from now.

 

What we do here?

Why we be here

Navigating our way

Through discourse?

I say shell it

With our thunder.

 

Annihilation today.

Annihilation tomorrow.

Annihilation  forever.

 

So sayeth the god named George Wallace

Hands locked to the wheel of a chair

He was forced to operate                

Because every single deity asked

Refused.

 

When he arrived

In pantheon celestial stomping grounds

Old George immediately requested

Use of his legs again –

A request neither denied

Nor fulfilled.

 

The agreed upon rules specified

That two gods had to second and third the request

Before it could even be heard by the full pantheon.

In all the time, Old George’s chair has been gilded

With the artistry of celestial secretions

There never has been such

An agreement.

 

They can agree on the weather,

The actual age of earth,

The alignment of planets

Everything and anything

Except that

George Wallace should have legs.

 

 

 Over in the corner, Atlas groans

- The world revolving on his back without cease –

 As the last syllable in annihilation forever dissipates;

Knowing the gods

Will now wax eloquent

Into eternity

Turning language upside down

In the effort to not be the one

Who seconds

The god George Wallace.

hidden and therefore untitled

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juicy from night secretions

open like an o’keefe petal

i am stymied

blocked

from light of day

enjoyment

by the fact

that mentally

and emotionally

he falls far short

of what i need

but not what i want.

 

I could…skulk…with him

in the middle of the night;

alarm set for some early hour

disturbing earned slumber.

I could be subterfuge

personified

but I am too much

the daughter of my mothers:

one who loved a man until he died

(but who also told me if she had known

his impact beforehand

would never have got with him);

another who will never offer

even a facsimile of an apology

because to do so

would be like breaking omertà.

 

i am their daughter

but i am also mother

to the future.

i model womanhood

for my son.

 

so i walk the line

between sacrifice

and desire.

 

The Life of a Poet ^!^

Posted by: yeyo da poet  :  Category: Poetry, poets, writing

I’ve filled oceans with my tears…
Painted the skies with my scattered
blues…
I’ve bled my pain…creating tides of
crimson on busted boulevards
I’ve lost myself numerous times on
the hunt for love…
These days, Cracks of Harlem dance
across my heart
I’ve written my life in bits & pieces
on pages…
I’ve sung my deepest poetic sorrows
on stages…
Which has given me strength while
making me vulnerable
My truth exposed like the meat of
an open wound
My misery & emotional instability
are sometimes the brunt of your jokes
You shake your head at my unfortunate
circumstances
Secretly holding back the fact that this
is your story too
You were once the slighted mistress…
You were once the rape victim…
You are the quote un quote crazy man
with an artistic magic in your hands
You used to slice your own flesh searching
for some sense of control…
wanting to feel…something
Because the numbness was unbearable
You used to fear trust so you drowned
in the pits of lust…pretending you liked it
This is me peeking beneath your mask…
peeling away the layers of you to really
see your soul
Opening your eyes & saying look…
there is nothing wrong with who you
are
See, I write my life in bits & pieces
on pages
I sing my deepest poetic sorrows
on stages…
Secretly knowing, this may be your
story too
But I will stand…I will write…
I will carry your story for you

~YeYo aka RAW SUGA’~

Love…& A Bullet ^!^

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grimacing at this circular reminder
of an engagement of deceit
I wonder, what should I…could I
do with it?
DECISION:
melt it down in the shape of a silver
bullet…just for you
Yea…then it’s presence wouldn’t hurt
my psyche

MIC CHECK

~YeYo aka RAW SUGA’~

Tragedy ^!^

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All I can say is this scene formed in my mind…so, I wrote it down
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He stood before me with a look
of dread
Eyes low…hands shaky…
& bowing his head
Tears running down his cheeks
but he didn’t make a sound
Almost as if his tongue & voice
were gagged & bound
He walked into our bedroom &
packed a small suitcase
But no longer could I persuade him
to look into my face
His silence was the loudest thing
he’d ever said
I began to cry too…because, somehow,
I knew…our poetry…was dead

~YeYo aka RAW SUGA’~

Melanie YeYo Carter (c) 2011

Forgiveness (Video) ^!^

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FORGIVENESS (VIDEO) ^!^

This piece is less than 24 hours old. It can’t be seen in written form anywhere. I decided to give this one to you personally. I hope you enjoy…& understand the message… RESECT & LOVE

~Melanie YeYo Carter~

kill kill kill

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Lord, I was twelve

A week away from thirteen

When I vowed

I’d never pray again;

Never address you

Even though

That was blasphemy.

 

I have kept to my sacrilege up until now.

 

Now I am forty-three

And down on my knees.

Unrepentant;

Yet so wretched

Hunger –

The kind that leads

To emotional destitution

Is the only thing

I feel.

 

One of the first tenets taught

is

Thou shall not kill.

But Lord

He killed me first;

Spread me open

Pushed inside

And killed me.

 

Lord, I would kill him

Again

For changing

In me

Forever

The sense

That love is home;

the space to be

Unadorned.

 

Lord, I don’t want to be a killer

but I do want to kill him

all over again;

I want him resurrected

Like Lazarus

So I that can

Plunge my knife

In his neck

Over and over

Until his diseased blood

Jettisons its container

In a shower

Of benediction.

 

I want it so bad

I am here

down on my knees

committing my form

to the sacrilege

of pleading

for the impossible.

Book Review – Home Girls: A Black Feminist Anthology

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Roaming the blogosphere as I am wont to do, I came across a challenge on calyx press’ blog. Of course, at 43, I do not qualify as a “young feminist” (if I ever did) but still it set me to thinking about my intentions to write a review of Home Girls: A Black Feminist Anthology.

To a young woman unanchored, on the verge of being culturally divorced from self, the anthology was one of a series of buoys clung to and devoured like I was a member of the Donner party – not the daughter of Salma. Comprising both poetry and prose, the book represents discussions black women were having with other black women – and society in general – about what it means to be a black woman. The scope of the conversation is wide-ranging. It includes the Combahee River Collective Statement which includes articulations such as

This focusing upon our own oppression is embodied in the concept of identity politics. We believe that the most profound and potentially most radical politics come directly out of our own identity, as opposed to working to end somebody else’s oppression. In the case of Black women this is a particularly repugnant, dangerous, threatening, and therefore revolutionary concept because it is obvious from looking at all the political movements that have preceded us that anyone is more worthy of liberation than ourselves. We reject pedestals, queenhood, and walking ten paces behind. To be recognized as human, levelly human, is enough.

I’m not entirely clear on the concept of identity politics. However, it does strike me as the essence of self-determination to push your own cause. In the case of black women, the cause should be black women. Home Girls is one of the spots along my literary read trail where I realized it was acceptable, revolutionary even, to come out from the background, open my mouth and express my full self.

Home Girls is also where I first encountered the work of poet Kate Rushin. Her poem, the Black Back-ups,

is dedicated to Merry Clayton, Cissy Houston, Vonetta Washington, Dawn, Carrietta McClellen, Rosie Farmer, Marsha Jenkins and Carolyn Williams. This is for all of the Black women who sang back-up for Elvis Presley, John Denver, James Taylor, Lou Reed, Etc, Etc, Etc.

This is for Hattie McDaniels, Butterfly McQueen, Ethel Waters
Saphire
Saphronia
Ruby Begonia
Aunt Jemima
Aunt Jemima on the Pancake Box
Aunt Jemima on the Pancake Box?
AuntJemimaonthepancakebox?
auntjemimaonthepancakebox?
Ainchamamaonthepancakebox?
Aint chure Mama on the pancake box?

Mama Mama
Get offa that damn box
And come home to me

And my Mama leaps offa that box
She swoops down in her nurse’s cape
Which she wears on Sunday
And on Wednesday night prayer meeting
And she wipes my forehead
And she fans my face for me
And she makes me a cup o’ tea
And it don’t do a thing for my real pain
Except she is my Mama
Mama Mommy Mommy Mammy Mammy
Mam-mee Mam-mee
I’d Walk a mill-yon miles
For one o’ your smiles

This is for the Black Back-ups
This is for my mama and your mama
My grandma and your grandma
This is for the thousand thousand Black Back-ups

And the colored girls say*

After reading this poem, I couldn’t hear Lou Reed’s Walk on the Side as just a song. Instead, it now expressed a relationship where the talent and artistic skill of black women is used to enrich other artists – musically as well as economically. It’s Big Mama Thornton and Elvis played out all over the cultural landscape. Or would be – except that Big Mama’s daughter wants her mother and wrote a poem about it; a poem which changes the dynamic landscape of understanding.

 

 

* © 1983 Donna Kate Rushin

Logic ^!^

Posted by: yeyo da poet  :  Category: Poetry, writing

 

This fool looked at me
Then, he referenced me as a
trifling bitch
I say,
“Well, you did introduce me
to your mother.
And, ironically,
she acts just like me…”

 
~YeYo aka RAW SUGA’~

#i’mjustsaying

Distant Rings of Saturn ^!^

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Origin…UNKNOWN
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My thoughts are not my own
They lay beneath dirty sheets &
on the seats of mobile bedrooms
They exist in the air between my
face & his fist
They were absorbed into the pillow
after I cried in the dark for a whole hour
one night
An hour of life I can never get
back
No…
My thoughts are not my own
They thrive in the dried up cum
stains of old lovers
But for the life of me,
I can’t remember his name…
her name…
So I guess it doesn’t matter
No…
My thoughts are not my own
They live inside the soul of my
ancestors
Who, some say, were much stronger
than we are today
They burn on the surface of the sun
They walk around the rings of Saturn…
slowly
surely
Purposely evading my capture
Purposely remaining distant from the
life form that created them
No…
My thoughts are not my own
They run marathons while standing
still
They skip-hop-jump 6 planets away
from an explosive ball of fire
They dance on 62 moons
While gazing at Titan…
Saturn’s largest ball of light
No…
My thoughts are not my own
They float from ring to ring
Counting as they go…
Ending at nine
Nine rings
Nine lives
I wonder how many I have left?
I just hope & pray that mortality is
light years & eons away…

~YeYo aka RAW SUGA’~