What’s In A Name ^!^

Posted by: yeyo da poet  :  Category: motherhood, Poetry, writing


And this came from one of the most beautiful places… Unlike my dark moments, I like being here
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I have never met you,
but I love you
I know that I will give you a
name with meaning
If you are a girl,
I will call you Lyric
Because everything about you
will stick in my mind like my
favorite song
Your voice will be like music
to my ears
Your smile will be my favorite
note
And, one day, you will write
You will write revolutions
If you are a boy,
I will name you James
James like my father because
he is the greatest man I have
ever loved
He stands for something
He stands for truth, love &
respect
This man’s hands have never
abused me
His words have never hurt me
intentionally
He has always protected me to
the best of his ability
So you will be strong
You will be intelligent
And, one day, you will write
You will write revolutions

~YeYo aka RAW SUGA’~

Wench by Dolen Perkins-Valdez – a Book Review

Posted by: Admin  :  Category: Book Reviews, Books, Literature, writing

I was all set to give Wench by Dolen Perkins-Valdez a half nod when I remembered a survey type of conversation I participated in a few years back. The questions we [a bunch of writers loosely connected through an online writing board] were asked was this: if we lived as slaves in America, what type of slave would we be: the house negro or the Harriet Tubman/Nat Turner type. Most of the responses centered on being Black Moses and Turner.  The pollster said that she herself wasn’t sure. Her response made me think especially because I was one of those cleaving to the Tubman dynamic. All enslaved Africans didn’t adhere to flight/fight mode. What of those who bore the genocidal nature of chattel slavery silently? What of those whose names we don’t know because the only worthy thing they did was to survive? With this book, Wench, we find the story of four such characters – Lizzie, Rennie, Sweet and Mawu – some of whom possess the inclination to flee. The four women are brought together over a series of summers in the decade or so before the Civil War when their “owners” vacation at Tawawa House in Tawawa Springs, Ohio – a free state. [A brief history note – due to the continual presence of slaveholders and their slaves, the hotel started losing money. The hotel, the land and surrounding acreage was sold and very shortly thereafter became Wilberforce University, now the oldest African-American private university in the US]

The series of events that the four slave mistresses (and their male companions – both enslaved and free) experience during the course of a series of summers testifies to the will to survive – a will with a contrary existence in a society which thrived off negation of that selfsame will. My change of heart (from that initial half nod to one more affirming) came as I delved deeper into the book. Of particular interest was the main character, Lizzie [named Eliza but renamed Lizzie by her owner’s wife after he moved her into the big house].  She commits actions that a surface reading of would have one labeling her as a collaborator in her own oppression – not to say anything of the harm her actions inflict on other characters. However, as I read further, I realized that life under slavery wasn’t so black and white (no pun intended). It is quite effective the way in which Perkins-Valdez leads the reader into a deeper understanding of the nature of slavery to the point of saying maybe – maybe I would have been like Eliza – concerned most of all about my children – wondering what the “Master” would do to them if I broke and run. Maybe, falling into human puppy love with the person convinced he owns you and having sex with him was considered a workable exchange for learning to read – and subsequently reading stolen newspapers to those who share your bondage. Maybe. Just maybe. That maybe moves slightly in direction of potentiality when I read in the author’s note following the end of the novel that “it is believed that the children of the unions between the slave women and the slaveholders were among the early students at [Wilberforce]”.

Outside The Box ^!^

Posted by: yeyo da poet  :  Category: Poetry, writing

My hands are shaking
Trembling
I can barely grasp my pen
Words are jagged & unsteady
I am unable to stay within
the lines
But who says I have to?
My words can go where ever
I desire them to
Just like my emotions
They fluctuate all on their own
See, I write vertically on a
horizontal lined page ;)

~YeYo aka RAW SUGA’~

A Form of Hatred ^!^

Posted by: yeyo da poet  :  Category: Poetry

This piece came from a dark corner on my insides… A place I visit more often than I would like to but, its apart of me. RESPECT & LOVE
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I don’t hate you
I simply hate that I love you
Every second, minute, hour
that I’m away from you,
it feels like my heart is being
ripped from my flesh
This must be a sickness of some kind
But I wonder, where is the
remedy?
Where is the Fix-It pill?
I need it because being in love
alone is a torture I can’t bear
You scar my skin every day
you don’t call
Every day you ignore me
Every day you forget to care
My soul was the sacrificial
lamb at your feet
So I guess this is my cross to
carry
Perhaps this is my punishment
for loving someone that belongs
to another?
I know that’s wrong
But, in my mind & in my heart,
you always belonged to me
That’s what you told me
That’s what you promised me
And I believed you
I really BELIEVED you
I trusted you with my heart
when all around me was chaos
I trusted you when the actions
of humanity told me not to
I trusted you when I had every
reason to hate you
To hate men
To hate women
But I don’t hate you
I just hate the fact that I
love you
I’ve loved you so long that I
don’t know how to stop
I suppose this is what happens
when a man grabs hold of a
girl chile
When a man comes into your
life during a time when you
feel you have nothing to live
for
I felt that no one would ever
want me
I don’t mean sexually because
that came with ease
I mean, WANT ME
NEED ME
LOVE ME
MARRY ME
Treat me like more than a used
condom which gets tossed in
the trash after sex
Treat me like more than a good climax
This is what hurts
You said you would marry me
You said you would love me
You said you would always be
there
YOU…WERE…NOT…THERE
You weren’t there when I
waited for hours by the window
You weren’t there when I
spent five days in the psyche
ward because of you
Because of other men like you
The other men that thought
raping me was okay
The other man that thought
slapping me across the face
was appropriate
I almost DIED because of you
And you never, not even once,
SAID
YOU
WERE
SORRY
When I needed you most, you
turned your back on me
You abandoned me without
even telling me where the Off
switch is for this condition
Presently, I hate everything
you stand for
But, no, I don’t hate you
I just hate the fact that I love
you
I’ve envisaged something though
Even if I still love you,
I don’t have to be your
doormat anymore

~YeYo aka RAW SUGA’~

Repeat ^!^

Posted by: yeyo da poet  :  Category: Poetry

Life changes. People come into your life and they leave, but they leave with pieces of you. And you are left with remnants of them.
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Once more, I find my heart
smashed on the floor in
unrecognizable pieces
Some form of love used to be
there, but its gone now
Shattered & turned to dust
Blown away with the night air
into the massive universe
I’m alone again
Abandoned again in an empty
house that I now have to
turn into home
My finger seemingly stuck on
repeat:
Fall in love…get hurt
Fall in love…get scarred
Fall in love…get abused

Fall in love…get used
My body is aching & wrapped
in exhaustion, but I can’t sleep
All I can do is think & feel
Feel an emotion that I have
grown accustomed to
There is no escape
This is my reality
Perhaps it will forever be this
way or maybe it won’t
Whose to say?
Predictions are so unpredictable
I was in love with a lie but I
see the truth quite clearly now
There are so many things I could say
So many negative things but
why?
Why continue to waste my time
on someone who was
never worth it?
I’m not
I will focus on the now
The present
The growth…on the inside of
me
He is apart of my past &
looking back hurts my neck
So I have no intentions of
doing so

~Melanie YeYo Carter~

Solitude ^!^

Posted by: yeyo da poet  :  Category: Poetry


Walking through the trenches
No footprints beside me
In front of me
Nor behind me
No shadows moving with
the sun
No whispers of love floating
on gust of wind
No light beaming in the cradle
of the night
Just a fog of confusion…
evidence of a lonely existence

~YeYo aka RAW SUGA’~

Agony ^!^

Posted by: yeyo da poet  :  Category: Poetry


No matter the source, pain
is pain
It all hurts the same
In the center of your heart
In the awkward trails of
your guts
Making it hard to see clearly
Your arms grow stiff
As you try to move forward &
swim through the shit

YeYo aka RAW SUGA’

They Weren’t Thankful

Posted by: Admin  :  Category: Literature, Poetry

You were run out of england

with your tails between your legs

and once you landed on plymouth rock

you used your tails

and other weapons of mass destruction

to whip the indigenous people

into your kind of shape.

You weren’t thankful

for maize

for turkey

for squash

for a second chance at life.

So…

You can keep thanksgiving

like you should’ve kept

the small pox infested blankets

you gave the people who kept you

from starving

that first winter

and subsequent winters

until they understood

that you are the sort

to repay your debts

with hypocrisy

and wholesale slaughter.

And…

You can keep it

cause I’m not interested in

taking it back.

Like the word nigga

it never belonged to me

and even if I was misguided enough

to believe it did

I’m not misguided enough to claim it

I’m not done yet…

Jive ass turkey, I turn the key

that unlocks all your secrets.

Your secretions smell like shit.

An excruciating stench emanates

From every single pore of this holiday.

Your parades don’t discharge your debt.

Instead, they ooze gluttonous ingratitude

which the unconscious greedily ingest

 

only to regurgitate americanism(s).

 

© 2005 Tichaona M. Chinyelu

Memoir of a Creature ^!^

Posted by: yeyo da poet  :  Category: Poetry, sexuality

Older piece from my files marked: EXPRESSION
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Substitutes for the thing I long for
but I can’t have: LOVE
For who could love a wretch
like me who haphazardly spreads
her legs
Searching
Wanting to feel in the numb places
and numb the places that feel too much
A lonely existence seems to be my
permanent resident
No one lingers long enough in the wet
spots to see beneath the pain…
the stain being too much to bare
So no one cares
And I’ve learned not to
I just smile
All the while hating…
Hating parts of me and the monster
that created me

YeYo aka RAW SUGA’

Space ^!^

Posted by: yeyo da poet  :  Category: Poetry

Baby, there’s not enough
space for this
I can’t share you
I won’t share you
I’m so tired of this triangle
Our love is being strangled
Can’t you see?
Don’t you recognize?
Distress is mirrored in my eyes
There should only be you
& me
There just ain’t enough room
for you, me & your insecurity
One of us has to go
But before you decide,
just know…
That Insecurity is a long &
lonely road

#melanielogic

YeYo aka RAW SUGA’